On Sunday I opened a Chinese new year fortune cookie I’d been given in Stratford. It said that in the next week I’d do something new and unexpected. I screwed it up and threw it away, thinking “When do I ever have a spare moment to do anything unexpected?”!
I can only assume that those words sank in to become a self-fulfilling prophecy, because somehow last night I found myself filling in a free basic profile on match.com – just intending to take a look around before I made any decision whether to pursue this option.
And now I have winks and emails to deal with and I have to make decisions, not only about whether or not to sign up and give it a go, but also whether to wink back at anyone, and if not – horror of horrors – to reject them. Which, by the way, is one of my greatest dating fears. I hate the idea of seeming judgmental or superficial. Both of which I know I am, but don’t want to admit to…
I’m a little afraid of my email right now!
So, to my online dating readers I ask, how long can I ignore the messages in a bid to avoid having to make decisions? What’s the etiquette on this sort of thing? Do I have to be wary of feelings if I don’t want to “wink” back, or is the whole point that it’s a safe environment in which to test the waters?
Am I doing the right thing?
(ASIDE: Should I start every blog entry with Angela’s introspective quote from My So Called Life – just as a disclaimer to warn people that I over-think EVERYHING?!)